Anti Social

It feels like stranger when I saw and read about things we used to be or how we were like best friend back then. Everything just change now, I think we're not know about each other anymore even I tried to talk through twitter or just response about the post, it ended up so quickly.

I think it's my fault that I always act "not-give-a-damn-care" towards them. So that's what I received as the feedback (?) and now I do really not know them. We ever met in real and went to trip together but I guessed it just worsened. No, it's not the trip fault. Well it was quite bad trip for me coz last one week before went back to Indonesia, I got super bad mood feelings, I shouldn't go with people that I don't want to but I went and bad things happened to my poor heart and it left trauma lebaaaiiii. I don't ever think it will turn out this bad... even the gap much wider now. I lost few good peps after I came back from that bad trip.

Ah, I missed those days where we used to talk a lot. Now I feels like I lost a good friend because of my attitude and I know this.... coz It happened more than once. I'm the one who left them and I'm the one who felt lonely in the end.

Last time I sent a gift and it wasn't cool or good or pretty or expensive stuffs, I just hope they will treasure it. I know this feelings, the feelings being left because I ever left some good peps and I ever being left too by good peps. Oh well... the conclusion it just myself.

So... I'm hoping I won't lose any good peps anymore and I should behave myself from "not-give-a-damn-care" attitude. Now let them be, they're happy without me and I'm happy they can be happy *dafug gw m banget*

I also hoping I can visit their country someday, even I'm not their friends anymore but at least I will fullfill my promise. And not will go with annoying peps again to my trip... I'm still pissed of even it was 2011... *pukul pukul dada mamo*